I think that your claim of a "report of an inner state" is the employment of metaphor to describe a change in your life. Because I speak English and am somewhat competent in its metaphors, I understand what your report means. Your report allows me to appreciate and sympathize with your situation. It doesn't mean I have to treat it as literally the case that there are two "selves" running around inside you. It is Grant Hutchison I sympathize with.